Sept 23 " I see Demons" Felipe

 

SONG OF THE WEEEKKK 

The Night Is Still Young- Nikki Minaj 

Shout out to my best friends, Raili, Kendall, and Marian. i miss you all dearly! I miss screaming this at the top of our lungs driving to Vegas, Cali beach house, bon fires, parties, swig drink runs when we should have been in class or studying. Love you and thank you for the memories  

( this was our song in collage, we listened to before we pulled up to every Function ) 

Me being REAL.   

Let me just be honest and say..... missions are very hard. My mission is hard. Doing the same thing everyday is hard. Being positive 24/7 is hard. Having a Rule for a rule for a rule is hard. Having no one wanting to listen to you is hard. Having no water/brown water is hard. walking everywhere and up hills the size of mount Everest is HARD, add doing it in hot weather, on a stomach 3 plates deep of food bc the members dont let you leave the house until then its very hard ( I usually throw it up not even lying). Having no one understand you and feeling like your a Pet on a Leash is hard. Having spiders crawling on me at night is not only hard but terrifying. Lol . 

However, despite all the hard, I have never felt more sure about my testimony ever. This is truly the lords work. This is his gospel, and I know that to be true. 

I think alot about the scripture 2 Nephi 2:2 " he shall consecrate thine afflictions for thy gain ". 

I Know when I look back on all the hard, lonely, disappointing, exhausting moments of my mission I will be forever thankful because I know experiencing all that I am is gonna help me and change me to be the person god needs me to be for the rest of my life! I already am seeing the changes, this is truly the most refining, and humbling experience ever. And I'm so happy I'm here in Brazil despite all the hard, I LOVE IT ! 

Also shout out to my amazing Neighbor the one and only, the legend, JWILLY!!! If you don't know him....sorry your lame 

  He sent a well needed voice memo during the week, and talked a lot about literally what I just was saying ^^^ and to have FUN in the journey!!Just was a well needed reminder but it meant a lot to me and it really was so cool and tender for me to hear that not only my family is supporting/ cheering me on but my WARD family is too. I love you all and I appreciate all of you that have reached out to me! 

Ok sorry now ill sit and tell you how amazing a mission is and why I think everyone should serve ahaha... Because it truly is awesome! 

 ( but I'm just being honest bc a lot of people make missions out to be this amazing, fun, easy, light hearted experience... and its actually quite the opposite majority of times lol )  

Weekly!! 

 this week has been a GRIND way more productive, lots of contacting, vists, and phone calls, lessons with members, done SOOOO much walking! We have worked HARD! And thankfully its paying off, and we did a fast this week to help find new people and literally god worked fast because we found 2 new people that actually seem promising!! 

Well lol idk but god works miracles soo im staying hopeful. Ill go in detail there actually both lowkey crazy but all souls are great in the eyes of god soo .... 

Ok this guy Felipe was like AMAZING we had a super good lesson and he was super excited and believed everything we were telling him and was just lighting up and was very engaged in the conversation and asking super good questions. Now he is a very nice person, homie is just off a little like socially. But like not weird enough to be considered a weridio/creep......... lol but we get to the end of the lesson and we asked if we could pray for him and if theres anything specific he needs help with in his life and he goes

 " yeah actually I have Schizophrenia..... so sometimes I see demons or some crazy things and hear voices, so can you pray for that?? " 

  

( I knew it was too good to be true) soo you know we prayed for that and that his new medication would help him stop seeing demons ahah. We will see where that goes! Felipe is a sweetheart though, and genuinely has a good tender spirit about him. 

( maybe if were lucky the voices will tell him the church is true and that he has to get baptized) only joking........ 

The next guy was agnostic and was like just talking to us to be nice you could tell he thought we were crazy. However me and sis Rocha gave a really convincing statement because you totally saw his heart like being soften while we were talking to him and he was so sincere and was like, tell me more and ill also read your book. And we were like..... seriously??? Cool !!!! and kept blabbing some more! Lol kinda cool. 

HIGHLIGHTS 

☆ This new neighborhood we are working in, is an 1 hr walk from our apartment all up hill too and we usually make the journey there and back, but our feet were actually bleeding ( our cracked Callous .feet ) and were hurting so bad so we used the city bus for the first time.... lets just say my good friend elder gooch said it best when he compared it to riding the StarTours/ Indiana jones ride in Disneyland. Was absolutely wild. But saved us SO much time and were still alive so win!!! 

Literally they are hauling 45-50, whipping round turns, all traffic laws out the window, and going over and threw this jungle terrain that no bus should be allowed to go threw lol  

☆ seeing grown men in butt tight skinny jeans will never not be funny to me. 

☆ it RAINNED!! so i made sister rocha go run down to our courtyard in our apartment complex and play in the rain, in our grandma Moo moos  ‍

☆ someone actually thought I was from Brazil ( southern part ofc because that's where all the white people live ) he said my accent was very good. Which I cried because in reality I speak SO bad, but the words I do know, i apparently speak perfectly lol so WIN  * Me Dabbing * 

 ☆ weather in the beginning of the week was amazing!! Which huge blessing, bc since being here there hasn't been a moment where I am not sweating/ dying of heat stroke. The rains are hopefully supposed to come soon which would be nice bc my water is brown.......and also doesn't work most the time....

☆ one of the members in our ward threw this party for there son's birthday and invited the whole ward. We had no idea they were rich... I guess they are both super famous Chefs in the area and opened up alot of very successful restaurants throughout Brazil... so not only were we in the nicest house ever, but we had the most amazing food I've had since being in Brazil. Win after win     

☆ having my compy sing me Chiquita by ABBA on the guitar when I was sad... immediately felt better 

☆ just overall having the best trainer I could've asked for. Grateful for her everyday  

☆ waking up in the middle of the night bc sis Rocha's sleep talking was so loud... it was so funny, we were getting rejected even in her dreams lol  

☆ Sister hoover knows this but now sister rocha now knows this but I fight demons in my sleep, im a crazy sleeper. 

but according to sister Rocha I was smacking/punching the wall for a solid 15 minutes in my sleep idk  ( Ig loud bc she woke up to it ) while mumbling " there is no tomorrow " ( i was dreaming about rocky/ creed lol amazing movies btw) then stopped and then later in the night I rolled off my bed and these beds are not stable so as I rolled off my mattress went with me and landed on top of me. That I do remember. I was so tried but me and sister rocha laughed for probably 10 minutes about it. 

☆ actually being able to sleep with my minky blanket instead of on top of my sheet bc usually its super hot. But it has been actually so cold at night ( this just made me really happy ) 

☆ went to some kind of karate tournament to watch one of the memebrs, it was incredible, i was looking for Mr Miagi the whole time. He wasn't present 

☆ Açai but plot twist found an AÇAI REDBULL??? was amazing, 10/10. Brazil has some crazy redbull flavors and im determined to try them all. Obviously in moderation bc I'm not about to get a heart attack. 

Love you all! Reach out por favor :) - Sister Tebbies